fashion, lifestyle

Dear 25,

Dear 25,

What an amazing year you have been to me. As cliche as it sounds, this year I truly grew and learned the most about myself. At the beginning of the year, I kept my 2016 resolution to do something, go somewhere, or try something new every month. While I kept that promise to myself, the beginning of 2017 was really rough. I then made another promise to myself that the remainder of 2017 and all of 2018 would be better and I was going do everything in my power to make it that way.

My 25th birthday was one to remember. I was in Chicago at the beginning of August to help my sister find her beautiful wedding dress and was also asked to stand by her on her big day as her Maid of Honor. I then met up with my best friend to spend the rest of the weekend running around the city, and then a few days later I turned up with Bruno Mars at his concert, which is still one of the best concerts I’ve been to this day. On my actual birthday, I brunched in up with my family and spent the day relaxing at the pool. It was truly the most perfect way to bring in my new year.

25 taught me a lot of patience. After really struggling to find a job out of college, save money, learn how to balance being a grown adult while still living at home with your parents, I was tested in more ways than one. But with that learned patience and persistence, a few weeks after my 25th birthday I received an e-mail. This e-mail, which I still joke with him about because I thought it was spam and ignored for about a week, was from a guy wanting me to come in an interview for a Social Media Strategist position for a company I had never heard of; hence why I thought it was spam. I drove up to Royal Oak, had about an hour and a half interview, received a call a few days later and I was offered a true dream job. Within almost a year of working there, I went from Social Media Strategist to Content Creator and was just put in charge of all of our Influencers. I never thought as someone who dreamed of getting to create for a living, is now actually getting to do so. If you are thinking of giving up because things haven’t been going your way for some time, please hold out for a little longer. I promise you it will all work out in the end.

My patience was tested again about 2 months into my new job. If you have ever had to commute for a job, then you know the struggle I am about to share with you. For the first 2 months of my job, I drove an hour to work, which I actually enjoyed because I got to listen to my morning radio show, but to get home took anywhere from 2-3 hours with traffic and major construction. It got to be the end of October and I had a breakdown. I was leaving for work in the dark and getting home in the dark which sent me into a frenzy. I finally told my parents I need to move before it started to snow because I was not going to be commuting in bad weather and get into another accident. We searched for about three weeks and found nothing. It got to the point where I thought I’d never find anything and while waiting I started to get scared about my finances and trying to balance bills, rent, and spending money. I never thought I was going to be able to do it.

All of a sudden my dad called me downstairs and showed me the most perfect little condo. With hardwood flooring, two bedrooms and a single bath, a large kitchen with all updated appliances, it was a dream. Two weeks later, with the help of my family, sister, and God’s patience sprinkled upon me not to hurt everyone helping me, I moved in. Every day when I walk into my condo, I feel this sense of accomplishment. How I never gave up, yet waited for my perfect space, how I saved to decorate it how I want and keep it clean because I love to show it off to anyone who comes over. Once again, just because things are working out as fast as you want them to, please don’t give up.

While the 2nd half of 2017 was more than I could have asked for, I honestly didn’t think it would be. After going through 2 truly horrible breakups and having my heart smashed into millions of pieces, it took two extraordinary people to put it back together. In late 2017 I met my 2 of my four best friends. Now you may read that and think “You can’t already be best friends with people who you met less than a year ago.” Oh but you can. These two individuals did more for me than some have done for me in years. Their patience with me, love, ability to listen, make me laugh, and be there for me when I needed it most, was exactly what I needed. I won’t share too much, but Em & Wes, if you’re reading this, thank you. You made everything terrible that happened at the beginning of the year completely worth it because, without it, I don’t think I would have you. I love you both so much.

With the start of 2018, I really kicked it into gear. I was a single pringle, going to the gym twice a day and really focusing on me. I really learned what it was like to be “alone”. I was perfectly fine sitting at home on a Saturday night, watching movies, not trying to talk to some random guy on a dating app, but just being by myself. Now, almost 6 months later, while I don’t go to the gym twice a day, but maybe 2-4 times a week, I’m still loving being on my own. I’ve been on a few dates, and while nothing stuck, I’m perfectly okay with it. I love my Monday/now Tuesday Bachelor nights, and Wednesday best friend “date nights” and shooting content on weekends. I head down to my parent’s house every other weekend to take full advantage of their pool and soak up family time. My mom and I meet up all over the place to go home decor shopping, and my brother comes up to stay with me and “get away” from the parents. LOL!

If there is one piece of advice I can give you that I learned in year 25, it’s to learn to be alone. Learn what it’s like to not have to have plans, but sit at home all weekend and not talk to a single soul. Learn to make meals for just yourself, or scarf down an entire pizza all on your own. Learn what it’s like to not have to be talking to someone on a dating app/texting in order to find comfort but to find comfort in the silence. When you finally allow yourself to be alone, you will learn so much about who you truly are.

To all of you who made 25 one of the most magical and meaningful years of my life, I thank you. I can only imagine what 26 will be like with you all by my side.

Love always,